A Diva's World Amongst Madness!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Dear Faviola

Dear Faviola,

It's officially 2011 babe, I LOVE YOU! You just turned 26 and you're in a great place. 2010 was something else! Haiti was a mess, and your friends got you through it. You boarded more planes than a little bit. Who knew Los Angeles would be your second home? You're definitely not the same woman who entered that year, as who left it. A little less greener, and a lot more serious about your wants. Realizing your love for someone never left you complacent. You've never backed down from what you've believed in.

That year was the year of no tolerance. If someone didn't bring joy into your world, you cut them off. Dead weight will create a dead mind-state and, that goes for negative energy as well. Learning what folks to keep at a distance was a blessing. You never was into trends or ignorance. Some of the bullshit people perpetuated was not entertaining nor cute. An I adore you for remaining you. The basic b*tch is taken!

Love was and will continue to be enlightening! The person you give your heart to can tend to disappoint you at times. How you deal with it, can factor in so many things. I'm proud that you never let emotions get the worst of you. You told him how you felt, instead of every social network. Cause at the end of the day, he's all that who matters. Don't ever change that about you.

Like is NOT Love!

New year folks! I've missed y'all, so let get it...

It's cold out in the heart of winter. And I've noticed one thing, it's cuffing season! Everyone wants someone to keep them warm. But how can you look, when your not even sure yourself. Here's a fact in life. If you settle early, you'll settle later. Why are you walking on egg shells, if you don't even know this person? If they're going to like you, shouldn't you be yourself? I'll let you know from the beginning, I'm a brat but I'm honest. Sarcastic but loyal. Blunt, yet the biggest baby you'll meet. I'm not for everyone. You may need a basic breed. Yet that also goes for most people. They just realize it, five months in.

If we must play the "Blame Game" it's both of your faults. It's ok to act like this as kids, but uhhh.. grow up. People's main excuse is "Oh but I like him/her". Keyword is "LIKE" here people. You can like just about anyone. I really don't think you understand that. Like is not LOVE. You just like that person like I like chocolate. And not even so because, (lets be honest) I'll shut down time for Hershey. I promise you, that all the flaws you see in the beginning, will be the reasons why you leave them. Usually works that way. Yet, you rather have someone than be alone. Wouldn't you rather be happy?

Everyone has a love language. You have to know what you need because, it'll take you farther than you believe. If you don't know what makes you happy. Can't quite expect someone else too. If you can't TELL them. Expect no growth. Unless, we've embarked on the latest tests on telepathy. I've realized in life, people will distort facts to make them happy. When they clearly know better. But do you want to be happy for a moment or life? If it's not going the way you want it, let it go. Understand the moment for what it was, and nothing more. That person may genuinely like you but, so may the next. That maybe the perfect situation for you.

If I tell you five times, that I don't like something an you do it again?! You just clearly disregarded what I said or didn't give a F**k. It is that simple. Don't make excuses for someone else.

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Not & The Best Love

I was up late last night, an things flowed to me as I tweeted. Here's a poem an some words in case you missed it...

"NOT"

Not any voice matters..
not every thought provokes..
not every foul is malice..
not every thought is spoke..

Not every heart is broken..
not every person loves..
not every heart is open..
not every love's a drug..

Not every person matters..
not every person cares..
not every person's loyal..
"Not Every's" why it's rare

The distance gone is measured..
the facts get blurred w/ lies..
the hope for things yet ventured..
is the reason why we try..

"The Best Love.."

The best love is made of..
lip gloss an shape-ups..
panties an fitted's..
pumps an the sixes..

The best love is made of..
scarfs an no make-up..
ignoring texts to lay up..
kisses when you wake up

...To be continued

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Idol Mind

An idol mind can ruin hearts
silence joy an implode sparks
Take away all that you know
Impose it's thoughts and doubt your growth

Come so far to go back now
Idol thoughts have no know how
No distinction for the better
crumble pride with any measure

stumbles past dear logic's door
few reasons they don't talk no more
One lives on thoughts of wrong and right
thee' other betrays the heart and sight

Either way you measure up
an idol mind is far from luck
it's far from hope
it's far from love
an idol mind's an evil drug...

                 ~Fav

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Save Her! Don't Inherit her behavior

I love good friends! You can learn from them, and grow with them. Just don't let them ruin you. Some people go through things, so you don't have too. But that doesn't necessarily mean you'll HAVE to. We're so on edge for what could happen, that we don't give way for what would happen. We tend to hold our loved ones so close that we too, tend to carry their burdens. They say, God won't give you more than you can handle. That doesn't mean, aid ALL your friends in shambles.

So many women have friends in tough situations that, they too are on defense. Every situation is as different as the parties in it. I can say to myself.. "I can learn! Be a realist, an not let naivety consume me". Cause lets be honest. Ain't nothing worse, than a dumb bish who swears it won't happen to "her". While it's literally panning out to be. *cues LAUGH* Though as hard as we try, we can't shield our lives from bitterness.

"Oh, Well! Tell her fall back. Caught up in some moe sh*t, tell her call back. Tell her get a man that ain't cheating on her ass, with a girl that I know.
Yea! Tell her all that.." -Drake

Just because you may know some shady people, doesn't mean you'll inherit their shady lives. I miss the days when I was green. Filled with fairytale dreams. Why even build walls that shouldn't exist? Especially, when you didn't go through it.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Frenemies.. how many us have them?

Know the difference ..let it process!

Friend -a person attached to another by feelings of affection or personal regard

Associate -buddy, pal, acquaintance, partner, chum, comrade

Enemy -who feels hatred for, fosters harmful designs against, or engages in antagonistic activities against another

FRENEMY

-a fraudulent, asinine, companionship, of fuckery and mistrust

Now-a-days, fraud is the new cool. Individuality, is shunned. Loyalty, is mocked and patronized.

All for the mere sake of entertainment. People don't have shit else to do. At first, I called it life. People fall out of sorts, all the time. Things happen. I know. But when did we start fck'n with people, for the hell of it? We exchange, jabs for hugs. Is it the need to be validated by others, that we keep some people around? If you clown her on a daily.. why even chime in to say "Hello"? Why entertain a bitch you don't like? Are you bored?

The excuses aren't even remotely rational. "Well.. she's sweet but" .. "they're cool but " ...BUT WHAT? Other than, you can't stand them! Subtweets and secret jokes are all subliminal. For the most part at least. Some stuff, is just out right and flagrant and disrespectful. Until it's done to you, of course. An then again we say .."well aren't they friends?" Your social circumference can't possibly be that jaded. Cause if I don't like you ..WE ARE NOT TALKING! It's not even an issue. It's just that simple. Stop leaching onto popularity's tit . She's a deceitful whore!

I just don't get people, who talk about the ones they hang with. In turn, I always feel bad for that other person. Just find a ledge and be committed.