Wednesday, January 12, 2011


I look in her eyes an see a million tears
..Ducks red and swollen..
from preeminent fears.
Which parallel emotion and pride..
Gives way as to why her demons collide.
All for the moment an none for the road.
A clear reason, her story is seldomly told.
All for the show an none for the take.
The weary's allotted much for the wait.
Much for the doubt
Tons for the pride
Your heart's exchanged
Go figure
..they lied..
Walls built up just to tear back down
Who signs up for the merry go round?
"I'm to old for this shit"
Spewed out by those who quit
Those who shared the common bond
Love in lust then venture on

Monday, January 3, 2011

New year New Men

#1. "Fellas in 2011 fellas stop doggin women and women stop calling every man a liar and a cheater and women stop trying to talk to niggas who's taken let's practice being committed my grandparents been married for 50th years I'm tryin to do that"
#2. "ONLY resolution is to be a better Father!"
Yesterday I saw a lot of statuses by men, that just made me proud. So many people wish for wealth an self, everyday. Yet they're not good people, or the best they could be. People will use an manipulate others, for the mere sake of being bored. Every thing's all fun and games with our generation, but look who's paying for our bad habits. We are, along w/ everything we touch!

The reason why it's hard to find loving, honest, successful, young black relationships. The reasons why your four yr old acts like they're fourteen. The reason grown adults are going back an fourth degrading one another over the internet. All of these things my parents wasn't having. My mother would say women don't act like that. My father would say "You are a child, this doesn't concern you" I played. I was allowed to be a kid. That term "This is grown folks business" doesn't exist anymore.

I think all men know how to love. Yet for some reason, they choose not to. They rather use people and hurt others. If every thing's about you, what exactly are you contributing. Is that your character? If you had no money, would your heart be full. Would the folks around you want to stay? Are you a good person? Anybodies "situation" can change in an instance. You can be rich and well off tomorrow. But if you fell off, who would catch you amidst the sorrow? You can't buy love or genuine loyalty.

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Dear Faviola

Dear Faviola,

It's officially 2011 babe, I LOVE YOU! You just turned 26 and you're in a great place. 2010 was something else! Haiti was a mess, and your friends got you through it. You boarded more planes than a little bit. Who knew Los Angeles would be your second home? You're definitely not the same woman who entered that year, as who left it. A little less greener, and a lot more serious about your wants. Realizing your love for someone never left you complacent. You've never backed down from what you've believed in.

That year was the year of no tolerance. If someone didn't bring joy into your world, you cut them off. Dead weight will create a dead mind-state and, that goes for negative energy as well. Learning what folks to keep at a distance was a blessing. You never was into trends or ignorance. Some of the bullshit people perpetuated was not entertaining nor cute. An I adore you for remaining you. The basic b*tch is taken!

Love was and will continue to be enlightening! The person you give your heart to can tend to disappoint you at times. How you deal with it, can factor in so many things. I'm proud that you never let emotions get the worst of you. You told him how you felt, instead of every social network. Cause at the end of the day, he's all that who matters. Don't ever change that about you.

Like is NOT Love!

New year folks! I've missed y'all, so let get it...

It's cold out in the heart of winter. And I've noticed one thing, it's cuffing season! Everyone wants someone to keep them warm. But how can you look, when your not even sure yourself. Here's a fact in life. If you settle early, you'll settle later. Why are you walking on egg shells, if you don't even know this person? If they're going to like you, shouldn't you be yourself? I'll let you know from the beginning, I'm a brat but I'm honest. Sarcastic but loyal. Blunt, yet the biggest baby you'll meet. I'm not for everyone. You may need a basic breed. Yet that also goes for most people. They just realize it, five months in.

If we must play the "Blame Game" it's both of your faults. It's ok to act like this as kids, but uhhh.. grow up. People's main excuse is "Oh but I like him/her". Keyword is "LIKE" here people. You can like just about anyone. I really don't think you understand that. Like is not LOVE. You just like that person like I like chocolate. And not even so because, (lets be honest) I'll shut down time for Hershey. I promise you, that all the flaws you see in the beginning, will be the reasons why you leave them. Usually works that way. Yet, you rather have someone than be alone. Wouldn't you rather be happy?

Everyone has a love language. You have to know what you need because, it'll take you farther than you believe. If you don't know what makes you happy. Can't quite expect someone else too. If you can't TELL them. Expect no growth. Unless, we've embarked on the latest tests on telepathy. I've realized in life, people will distort facts to make them happy. When they clearly know better. But do you want to be happy for a moment or life? If it's not going the way you want it, let it go. Understand the moment for what it was, and nothing more. That person may genuinely like you but, so may the next. That maybe the perfect situation for you.

If I tell you five times, that I don't like something an you do it again?! You just clearly disregarded what I said or didn't give a F**k. It is that simple. Don't make excuses for someone else.